Good day to you all and please do forgive my temporary absence. A lot has been going on in my life starting by my continued healing journey from the (Mild) Traumatic Brain Injury –Ps. I hate calling it ‘mild’ but that is was what I was diagnosed when shortly after the November 23rd, 2018 motor vehicle. There is nothing ‘mild’ about brain injury. folks, please do me a favor and do not give any advice whatsoever to person in your life with brain injury unless you -yourself, have felt that pain. Do not ever tell those with injury that ‘it happened for a reason’ and don’t dare to tell them, ‘you look fine’. dont tell them to ‘get over it’, don’t tell them, ‘the more you talk about it, the worse it gets’. please don’t unless you are prepared to be slapped across the face ok?
I mean well when I say those words becuase I do not want you to make the mistake a small number of people in my circle continue to talk this way with me. I don’t like them but I let them get it out of their system and hopefully one day they read and learn about TBI.
This is an old photo of Christmas 2017 my hubby shot of me when one of my beautiful sisters took me to a salon to make my long curly hair, straight. I kept startling my hubby and my boys confusing them because they kept thinking a strange woman is in the house LOL. That was funny.
My temporary absence was due to many reasons and I can list some of them here: The ongoing physical and mental therapy I am receiving, I started working and driving again, I am back to working on completing my memoir (the TBI prevented me for many months from writing and also creating new poetry), I am gradually and painfully slowly am writing new poems again, my boys are teenagers now and I needed to deal with few family issues beside my 86-year-old father having heart attack and the most important reason to point out here is that my computer got a nasty malware that didn’t allow me to use my website and I am not that bright to fix computer problems so I took time off from posting.
I will try to get back to writing and posting here. I entered few poetry contests and I studied to take my STIBC exam (wish me luck) I am waiting for the test result. Society of Translators and Interpreters of BC will put my name on a massive database of province-wide interpreters and translators and will assist me to also hike my fee/ hourly rate.
I am also aiming at finishing my manuscript and make the first draft before Christmas becuase I am planning to go visit my homeland in spring of 2020
I have been taking a lot of time to heal by connecting to the beings all around me including the four legged, the feathery friends, the scaly ones that swim in the water, the creepy crawlers, the air I breath, the soil I walk on, the water inside me and that rain that falls on me. I have been spending a lot of time in solitude among the mighty grandfathers and grandmother speaking trees in the forest. I have attended few indiginous women sweat lodge and also using CBD oil to help me heal and calm my anxiety.
I have benefited immensely from others around me mainly women who have been beyond kind to me and helping me along the way. Many lifted me up, many of them told me of their own/loved ones brain injures and most just loved me the way I am and helped me whenever I needed them without judging or questioning me or lecturing me on how ‘I should’ be in order to heal from TBI. Those men, those women and those non-binary and two spirit people around me are the reason I am healing and made it this far. You know who you are. I thank you and I love you.
I am blessed and happy to be gradually recovering from the injury yet still struggling with some annoying and disruptive symptoms. I hope they all go a way so I can get back to my life and finish my memoire soon.
Be well, be kind and be you.
I am back baby, I am back!